Assalamualaikum and good evening.

  How's it going? It's almost 5 days of school holiday and I didn't even do any of my homework yet. I got lots of them and I should be struggle because I'm going to take my SPM soon but hey I'm just a piece of shit that always blaming my past self. Haha. Life's getting better. Haha no. It's getting worst than before. I didn't speak with my family for a month now. Yes. A month. Why. Don't know. Just like being alone I guess. If it's a school day, I get up in the morning and ironed my clothes and shower and getting ready and out of my house without seeing them or I just ignored them. Yeah I know. I am a horrible person but who cares. I'm just tired of being  their disappointment yet I'm still doing it. Maybe I thought ignoring everything will make me escape from reality. Even though I promise myself in front of the holy Kaaba that I will be a better person. Yeah doing umrah doesn't change me. Or should I say THEM. But hey you need to stop blaming anyone else and start blaming yourselves. My post are always emo huh. Maybe because I'm just emo inside. Seriously if you met me in person, I'm not emo at all. I am more of a happy-go-luck dork. Look at that picture. I'm smiling, haha. Even though we are at the holy place on earth we still have fights. Weird. My mom even became more sensitive than she is when we're at Makkah.



  The sun is bright there. Despite all the dramas. But it's not like all of them are bad memories. There's actually lesser than that. I actually happy there. Really happy. Happy just like before she lose her leg and our family are gloomy. It was really peaceful there I even wish I lived there. I just wish I can go there again and again and again because that place is great really great. You should really go there.  Sometimes you feel like you just want to stop and cry and smile sitting in front of the holy Kaaba and just stay there.



   This post weren't supposed to be emotional though but you know sometimes my brain just stray away from the path. You get what I mean? Okay. I just need to stop posting this kind of stuff. This kind of emotional and personal stuff. It's not that fun to read. I know. I don't think there's anyone reading this though. Haha. I'm such a loner. I'll try to change for the better. Insya'allah. Guess this post ends here. Goodbye.

My Lord will guide me to the Right Path. -Quran 28:22